Day 4: Don’t Pray Away

What is a situation in your life where you saw God change you through it rather than simply make the problem go away? Every day I replay the memory of Zeke’s life and death in the hospital. Sometimes the memory occurs right when I wake up. Sometimes it plays randomly throughout the day. Today it…

Day 3: Amazing Things

“Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do amazing things among you.” – Joshua 3:5 “It is impossible to please God without faith.” -Hebrews 11:6 Today’s chapter of the book has caused me to reflect on the many amazing things that the Lord has impressed upon my family’s life. Growing up, I never envisioned living anywhere…

Day 2: The 40 Day Prayer Challenge

This 40 day prayer challenge was brought to my attention from a friend. The challenge spoke to me because lately I feel like I am at the tipping point of discovering what God has been calling me to do. With the loss of Ezekiel, getting my mind, heart and body ready for the TTC process,…

Day 1: The 40 Day Prayer Challenge

The concept of Big Faith. What does it mean? What happens when you dive headfirst into a situation, abandoning all your fears, shame, memories of the past, doubt and uncertainty all at the feet of Jesus? What does it really mean to dedicate your life fully and completely in the presence of the Lord? My…

Seasons

I’m winding down for the year and wrapping up the school and work season. I’ve been mulling over some new entries and will be updating in the next several days. In the meantime, I leave you with a song that has been on repeat on my playlist. I believe that my season will come.   …

The battle continues

It has been six months since the passing of Zeke. Three months since my TAC surgery. My grief continues to come in waves. Other days I am fine. Some days I am not. As the holiday season approaches, it absolutely breaks my heart that the homecoming arrival of my son to San Diego during the…

Invisible Boundaries

It’s been well over a month post-TAC surgery. I’ve received some questions on Abbyloopers about my recovery so I just wanted to check-in. I’m so thankful to say that my recovery has gone really well. Days after my surgery, I was resuming normal activity and walking around for miles a day here in NYC, albeit…

A Detailed Overview of my TAC Experience with Dr. Haney

Thursday, August 3, 2017 – Arrival Day My husband and I flew into Chicago O’Hare airport. It was a direct flight from NY’s LaGuardia airport, which is only 15 minutes away from our apartment. While the nerves arrived well before this day, they really started to sink in when we touched down in Chicago. With…

Transabdominal Cerclage Tips

Here are some helpful tips that you should consider before your TAC surgery.     Saturday Morning – Try to schedule the first appointment on the day of your surgery. If you can book a Saturday, I highly recommend it! There was no one in the surgery center when I checked-in and even after the surgery. Fiber and…

Cervical Insufficiency: What now?

In addition to my consults with my physicians, I have relied heavily on information through multiple resources to make an informed decision before deciding on my TAC. I highly recommend you do the same. Here is a sample of medical journals, blogs, youtube, hash tags on social media, reviews of doctors, and message boards that…

You are your best TAC advocate

If you decide to get a TAC, brace yourself for the opposition you will be receiving. Stick to your gut and pray about it. Be your own advocate because, sadly, there won’t be many out there. My OB/GYN’s office is literally downstairs from my apartment building. When I exit my building to the right, there…

Do It Again

Counting down two weeks and some change until my TAC surgery! I have updates to write about my follow-up appointments with my OB/GYN and my appointment with a Maternal Fetal Medicine Specialist at Weill-Cornell yesterday. These posts will have to wait until I get through all my work the next couple of days. In the…