The battle continues

It has been six months since the passing of Zeke. Three months since my TAC surgery. My grief continues to come in waves. Other days I am fine. Some days I am not. As the holiday season approaches, it absolutely breaks my heart that the homecoming arrival of my son to San Diego during the…

Invisible Boundaries

It’s been well over a month post-TAC surgery. I’ve received some questions on Abbyloopers about my recovery so I just wanted to check-in. I’m so thankful to say that my recovery has gone really well. Days after my surgery, I was resuming normal activity and walking around for miles a day here in NYC, albeit…

Transabdominal Cerclage Tips

Here are some helpful tips that you should consider before your TAC surgery.     Saturday Morning – Try to schedule the first appointment on the day of your surgery. If you can book a Saturday, I highly recommend it! There was no one in the surgery center when I checked-in and even after the surgery. Fiber and…

My Phone Consult with Dr. Haney

On the day of my phone consult with Dr. Haney, I paused and invited God into my conversation with him. I asked God for his guidance in helping me to determine if this is the procedure I should complete and if Dr. Haney was the doctor I should go to. I had been thinking non-stop…

God of Miracles

After seven weeks of short-term disability and bereavement leave, I headed back to work this week. I expected the awkwardness but it was still painful. “It was a surprise to all of us. Listen – I don’t even know what to say to you.” “Usually management sends pictures of the baby after delivery. How are you? How’s…

Pregnancy Reflections

For the most part, I had an uneventful pregnancy with Ezekiel. I did the exact opposite of what I did during my pregnancy with my daughter. I ate well, I exercised, I wasn’t as stressed, and I didn’t travel as much except for the occasional San Francisco and two week long international work trips. While…